I have a confession to make.
Hurricane Sandy has me worried sick about my widow friends.
Sure, I have friends that are in Sandy's path, but they aren't ALONE. They have their husband!
I am just sick - watching and waiting for my widow friends (and their children) to reappear online so I know they are safe.
Now I feel guilty. Sure I am worried about my married friends, but I am worried sick about my widow friends.
I'm a shitty friend to be worried more about my widow friends then my "normal" friends.
I freak out with lighting and thunder, I can't imagine going through a storm like Sandy alone.
I can't imagine being hunkered down, in my house, alone, waiting for this shit to pass!!
Widow friends - I love you.
Please check in when you can!
Monday, October 29, 2012
Sunday, October 28, 2012
If Tears Could Build A Stairway
If Tears Could Build A Stairway
If tears could build a stairway
And memories were a lane
We would walk right up to Heaven
And bring you back again
And memories were a lane
We would walk right up to Heaven
And bring you back again
No farewell words were spoken
No time to say goodbye
You were gone before we knew it
And only God knows why
No time to say goodbye
You were gone before we knew it
And only God knows why
Our hearts still ache in sadness
And secret tears still flow
What it meant to lose you
No on will ever know
And secret tears still flow
What it meant to lose you
No on will ever know
But know we know you want us
To mourn for you no more
To remember all the happy times
Life still has much in store
To mourn for you no more
To remember all the happy times
Life still has much in store
Since you’ll never be forgotten
We pledge to you today
A hallowed place within our hearts
Is where you’ll always stay
We pledge to you today
A hallowed place within our hearts
Is where you’ll always stay
He should..
He should be your best friend.
The one you can talk to about everything.
He should appreciate that you try to cook even if the fire alarms go off instead of the timer, and you have to order take out.
He should tell you you're beautiful as much as he can.
He should always tell you the truth, even if that might break your heart.
He should always make you a priority.
And he should cherish you always.
The one you can talk to about everything.
He should appreciate that you try to cook even if the fire alarms go off instead of the timer, and you have to order take out.
He should tell you you're beautiful as much as he can.
He should always tell you the truth, even if that might break your heart.
He should always make you a priority.
And he should cherish you always.
Sunday, October 21, 2012
Movie Reviews: Case 39
Case 39 was a really good movie!
It was super scary, and super intense.
Plus it had Bradley Cooper in it. Yumm-oh.
That dude is fucking sexy!!
It was super scary, and super intense.
Plus it had Bradley Cooper in it. Yumm-oh.
That dude is fucking sexy!!
Movie Review: Jeff that lives at home
Jeff that lives at home was a boring, boring, movie.
BUT, the last 20-30 mins of the movie made it worth watching!
Wait for it to come out on cable.
BUT, the last 20-30 mins of the movie made it worth watching!
Wait for it to come out on cable.
Saturday, October 20, 2012
Screaming
Written Sept 20th, 2010
Last night I was woken up from a dead sleep by S. yelling.
It was so real, my earrings were ringing. I sat up straight in bed, realizing I am alone, and just heard him yell. I was shaking, upset, and scared to death.. I was terrified. That was the most frightened I have ever been in my whole life.
I couldn't get over the sound of his voice, almost like he was screaming?Unfortunately the jolt out of my sleep, made me forget what he said.. He said something like "This isn't right" or "Something is wrong", I can't remember exactly. I remember being confused about what isn't right?
I keep feeling like he is stuck somewhere between earth and heaven. Maybe he has unsettled business. Maybe that's what happens to a suicide victim.
But the fact that he is with me every night in my sleep is worry some. He should be up in heaven, doing his heavenly business, and not with me.
Last night I was woken up from a dead sleep by S. yelling.
It was so real, my earrings were ringing. I sat up straight in bed, realizing I am alone, and just heard him yell. I was shaking, upset, and scared to death.. I was terrified. That was the most frightened I have ever been in my whole life.
I couldn't get over the sound of his voice, almost like he was screaming?
I keep feeling like he is stuck somewhere between earth and heaven. Maybe he has unsettled business. Maybe that's what happens to a suicide victim.
But the fact that he is with me every night in my sleep is worry some. He should be up in heaven, doing his heavenly business, and not with me.
Saturday, October 13, 2012
Movie Review: The 5 year engagement
I watched the 5 year engagement last night.
It was hilarious and so cute!
I cried and laughed.
It drags a lil in the middle of it, but it's worth it.
Go watch it!
It was hilarious and so cute!
I cried and laughed.
It drags a lil in the middle of it, but it's worth it.
Go watch it!
Friday, October 12, 2012
Blog views
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Today I was looking at how people get to my blog.
What search they used to find it.
Some were porn sites. Which means, if you have a porn site open, you open another tab and go to my blog (leaving the porn open) it will show the porn site.
Some searches were "Afraid of losing my girlfriend" and "amateur body stockings".
Now my question is, who is looking and porn, and suddenly decides it's time to catch up on my blog??
Moral of the story, friends and stalkers, close your other tabs before googling for my blog.
Otherwise I will get one hell of a laugh off your search method!
And of course I will blog about it.
Bwaahhaa..
"my girlfriend has tiny nipples".
Thursday, October 11, 2012
Movie Review: The woman in black
The woman in black is one of the scariest movies I have seen in a couple years.
It is well written and filmed.
Go rent it, it is Halloween season, ya know!
It is well written and filmed.
Go rent it, it is Halloween season, ya know!
Dream from 11/16/10
A dream I had on 11/16/10
I had a dream right before my alarm went off. I dreamed me and S. were standing in my parents old house, in the kitchen.. It was before they had done all the remodeling.
I dreamed S. was hugging me and saying I love you and miss you soo soo much.. (He has said the soo soo much thing in several dreams now) I could smell his cologne and feel the squishiness of his chest. He was wearing his favorite hoodie (he is every time I dream about him). In my mind, I knew he was here from heaven, and our time was limited. As he was telling me how much he misses me and stuff, he started to disappear, and I knew it was time for him to go back to heaven. In my dream I was crying, and saying, please don't go yet, please just a little more time. The next thing I knew, we were snuggling in bed, and I was laying on his chest. He was telling me he has been watching his mom, and has seen how much she loves all the teachers (in my mind I kept thinking don't you mean students?). I remember I was really irritated, because we were on limited time, and the last thing I wanted to do was talk about his mom.. I wanted to talk about us.
At the end of my dream, he told me something.. He said I am going to tell you something that is very important, so I need you to pay attention. He told me the important thing. then he told me it was time for him to go back, and I woke up. I sat up in bed crying (I think I was crying in my sleep) and was frantic trying to remember what he told me.. I couldn't remember.
I dreamed S. was hugging me and saying I love you and miss you soo soo much.. (He has said the soo soo much thing in several dreams now) I could smell his cologne and feel the squishiness of his chest. He was wearing his favorite hoodie (he is every time I dream about him). In my mind, I knew he was here from heaven, and our time was limited. As he was telling me how much he misses me and stuff, he started to disappear, and I knew it was time for him to go back to heaven. In my dream I was crying, and saying, please don't go yet, please just a little more time. The next thing I knew, we were snuggling in bed, and I was laying on his chest. He was telling me he has been watching his mom, and has seen how much she loves all the teachers (in my mind I kept thinking don't you mean students?). I remember I was really irritated, because we were on limited time, and the last thing I wanted to do was talk about his mom.. I wanted to talk about us.
At the end of my dream, he told me something.. He said I am going to tell you something that is very important, so I need you to pay attention. He told me the important thing. then he told me it was time for him to go back, and I woke up. I sat up in bed crying (I think I was crying in my sleep) and was frantic trying to remember what he told me.. I couldn't remember.
It was so real. It's weird, normally when I dream, I am watching myself do whatever is going on. But when I dream about S., I am in my own body. And it's always so freaking real. I can remember every little details of my dreams with him.
I was frantic for several weeks trying to remember what the important message was. Through my counselor, she helped me get the message. The message was – I need you to pay attention.
Basically my life is a fog, and I am never paying attention.
I get it now.
I get it now.
Wednesday, October 10, 2012
We always know!
Dating.
What a joke.
I get it, dating a widow can't be easy.
Sure, I have baggage.
I will always love S.
No matter what.
But men now days, are just idiots.
The grass is always greener on the other side
"You May Think The Grass Is Greener On The Other Side - But If You Take The Time To Water Your Own Grass it Would Be Just As Green".
Technology makes MEN think they can "digitally" cheat, and not get caught.
MEN will look us straight in the face and lie.
When we know you are full of shit.
What they don't understand, is woman are effin smart.
We know.
We always know!
Even if we don't know, our gut instincts and heart know.
Just takes our brain a while to accept it.
MEN feed us full of shit, and soon as we start falling for them, bam.
They turn into a fucking idiot!
For all the men out there that think you are cleaver and will get away with it...
You won't.
She will know.
And guess what? She deserves FAR better then YOU.
What a joke.
I get it, dating a widow can't be easy.
Sure, I have baggage.
I will always love S.
No matter what.
But men now days, are just idiots.
The grass is always greener on the other side
"You May Think The Grass Is Greener On The Other Side - But If You Take The Time To Water Your Own Grass it Would Be Just As Green".
Technology makes MEN think they can "digitally" cheat, and not get caught.
MEN will look us straight in the face and lie.
When we know you are full of shit.
What they don't understand, is woman are effin smart.
We know.
We always know!
Even if we don't know, our gut instincts and heart know.
Just takes our brain a while to accept it.
MEN feed us full of shit, and soon as we start falling for them, bam.
They turn into a fucking idiot!
For all the men out there that think you are cleaver and will get away with it...
You won't.
She will know.
And guess what? She deserves FAR better then YOU.
Saturday, October 6, 2012
Quotes
This is a ongoing list of quotes that I find and enjoy.
"Absence sharpens love, presence strengthens it." -Thomas Fuller
You never lose by loving. You always lose by holding back. ~ Barbara De Angelis
“Live life so completely that when death comes to you like a thief in the night, there will be nothing left for him to steal.”
Never be bullied into silence. Never allow yourself to be made a victim. Accept no one's definition of your life; define yourself. ~ Harvey Fierstein
"If you can make a girl laugh, you can make her do anything." — Marilyn Monroe
They that love beyond the world cannot be separated by it. Death cannot kill what never dies. — William Penn
"This is who I am. Nobody said you had to like it." - Unknown
This life is what you make it. Not matter what, you're going to mess up sometimes, it's a universal truth. But the good part is you get to decide how you're going to mess it up. Girls will be your friends - they'll act like it anyway. But just remember, some come, some go. The ones that stay with you through everything - they're your true best friends. Don't let go of them. As for lovers, well, they'll come and go too. And babe, I hate to say it, most of them - actually pretty much all of them are going to break your heart, but you can't give up because if you give up, you'll never find your soul mate. You'll never find that half who makes you whole and that goes for everything. Just because you fail once, doesn't mean you're gonna fail at everything. Keep trying, hold on, and always, always, always believe in yourself, because if you don't, then who will, sweetie? So keep your head high, keep your chin up, and most importantly, keep smiling, because life's a beautiful thing and there's so much to smile about." — Marilyn Monroe
"Nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but anyone can start today and make a new ending. - Maria Robinson”
"I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best." — Marilyn Monroe
“Whether you think you can or think you can’t, you’re right. – Henry Ford”
"I've never dropped anyone I believed in. ~ Marilyn Monroe"
"When you feel like giving up, remember why you held on for so long in the first place." - Author unknown
"I believe in pink. I believe that laughing is the best calorie burner. I believe in kissing, kissing a lot. I believe in being strong when everything seems to be going wrong. I believe that happy girls are the prettiest girls. I believe that tomorrow is another day and I believe in miracles."
- Audrey Hepbur
This life is what you make it. Not matter what, you're going to mess up sometimes, it's a universal truth. But the good part is you get to decide how you're going to mess it up. Girls will be your friends - they'll act like it anyway. But just remember, some come, some go. The ones that stay with you through everything - they're your true best friends. Don't let go of them. As for lovers, well, they'll come and go too. And babe, I hate to say it, most of them - actually pretty much all of them are going to break your heart, but you can't give up because if you give up, you'll never find your soul mate. You'll never find that half who makes you whole and that goes for everything. Just because you fail once, doesn't mean you're gonna fail at everything. Keep trying, hold on, and always, always, always believe in yourself, because if you don't, then who will, sweetie? So keep your head high, keep your chin up, and most importantly, keep smiling, because life's a beautiful thing and there's so much to smile about." — Marilyn Monroe
"Nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but anyone can start today and make a new ending. - Maria Robinson”
"I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best." — Marilyn Monroe
"I believe in pink. I believe that laughing is the best calorie burner. I believe in kissing, kissing a lot. I believe in being strong when everything seems to be going wrong. I believe that happy girls are the prettiest girls. I believe that tomorrow is another day and I believe in miracles." - Audrey Hepbur
“Whether you think you can or think you can’t, you’re right. – Henry Ford”
"I've never dropped anyone I believed in. ~ Marilyn Monroe"
"When you feel like giving up, remember why you held on for so long in the first place." - Author unknown
To avoid criticism, do nothing, say nothing, be nothing. -Elbert Hubbard
“But mostly, I cried because my life had been going full speed for so long and now it had just stopped, like running right into a big brick wall, knocking the wind and the fight right out of me. And I didn’t know if I’d ever even wanted to get up and start breathing again.” - Sarah Dessen
"If everything is under control, you are going too slow." - Mario Andrett
In the 1960s, people took acid to make the world weird. Now the world is weird, and people take Prozac to make it normal. ~Author Unknown
"Never be afraid to try something new. Remember that a lone amateur built the Ark. A large group of professionals built the Titanic."
— Dave Barry
Life is not a right, but rather a privilege. ~ Nickleback
" I am not afraid of the storms, because I am learning how to sail my ship" ~Louisa Mae Alcott~
" It is a true friend who can be silent with us in a moment of despair or confusion, who can stay with us in an hour of grief and bereavement, who can tolerate not knowing, not curing, not healing and face with us the reality of our powerlessness, that is a friend who cares."
— Henri J.M. Nouwen
You don't necessarily decide who walks into your life, but you can decide who you let stay & who you let go!
"Never judge a widow's progress by your own or anyone else's experience. Grief does not come in 'One size fits all.' We each are unique; and so is our grief." ~ Annie Estlun
"Absence sharpens love, presence strengthens it." -Thomas Fuller
You never lose by loving. You always lose by holding back. ~ Barbara De Angelis
“Live life so completely that when death comes to you like a thief in the night, there will be nothing left for him to steal.”
Never be bullied into silence. Never allow yourself to be made a victim. Accept no one's definition of your life; define yourself. ~ Harvey Fierstein
"If you can make a girl laugh, you can make her do anything." — Marilyn Monroe
They that love beyond the world cannot be separated by it. Death cannot kill what never dies. — William Penn
"This is who I am. Nobody said you had to like it." - Unknown
This life is what you make it. Not matter what, you're going to mess up sometimes, it's a universal truth. But the good part is you get to decide how you're going to mess it up. Girls will be your friends - they'll act like it anyway. But just remember, some come, some go. The ones that stay with you through everything - they're your true best friends. Don't let go of them. As for lovers, well, they'll come and go too. And babe, I hate to say it, most of them - actually pretty much all of them are going to break your heart, but you can't give up because if you give up, you'll never find your soul mate. You'll never find that half who makes you whole and that goes for everything. Just because you fail once, doesn't mean you're gonna fail at everything. Keep trying, hold on, and always, always, always believe in yourself, because if you don't, then who will, sweetie? So keep your head high, keep your chin up, and most importantly, keep smiling, because life's a beautiful thing and there's so much to smile about." — Marilyn Monroe
"Nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but anyone can start today and make a new ending. - Maria Robinson”
"I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best." — Marilyn Monroe
“Whether you think you can or think you can’t, you’re right. – Henry Ford”
"I've never dropped anyone I believed in. ~ Marilyn Monroe"
"When you feel like giving up, remember why you held on for so long in the first place." - Author unknown
"I believe in pink. I believe that laughing is the best calorie burner. I believe in kissing, kissing a lot. I believe in being strong when everything seems to be going wrong. I believe that happy girls are the prettiest girls. I believe that tomorrow is another day and I believe in miracles."
- Audrey Hepbur
This life is what you make it. Not matter what, you're going to mess up sometimes, it's a universal truth. But the good part is you get to decide how you're going to mess it up. Girls will be your friends - they'll act like it anyway. But just remember, some come, some go. The ones that stay with you through everything - they're your true best friends. Don't let go of them. As for lovers, well, they'll come and go too. And babe, I hate to say it, most of them - actually pretty much all of them are going to break your heart, but you can't give up because if you give up, you'll never find your soul mate. You'll never find that half who makes you whole and that goes for everything. Just because you fail once, doesn't mean you're gonna fail at everything. Keep trying, hold on, and always, always, always believe in yourself, because if you don't, then who will, sweetie? So keep your head high, keep your chin up, and most importantly, keep smiling, because life's a beautiful thing and there's so much to smile about." — Marilyn Monroe
"Nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but anyone can start today and make a new ending. - Maria Robinson”
"I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best." — Marilyn Monroe
"I believe in pink. I believe that laughing is the best calorie burner. I believe in kissing, kissing a lot. I believe in being strong when everything seems to be going wrong. I believe that happy girls are the prettiest girls. I believe that tomorrow is another day and I believe in miracles." - Audrey Hepbur
“Whether you think you can or think you can’t, you’re right. – Henry Ford”
"I've never dropped anyone I believed in. ~ Marilyn Monroe"
"When you feel like giving up, remember why you held on for so long in the first place." - Author unknown
To avoid criticism, do nothing, say nothing, be nothing. -Elbert Hubbard
“But mostly, I cried because my life had been going full speed for so long and now it had just stopped, like running right into a big brick wall, knocking the wind and the fight right out of me. And I didn’t know if I’d ever even wanted to get up and start breathing again.” - Sarah Dessen
"If everything is under control, you are going too slow." - Mario Andrett
In the 1960s, people took acid to make the world weird. Now the world is weird, and people take Prozac to make it normal. ~Author Unknown
"Never be afraid to try something new. Remember that a lone amateur built the Ark. A large group of professionals built the Titanic."
— Dave Barry
Life is not a right, but rather a privilege. ~ Nickleback
" I am not afraid of the storms, because I am learning how to sail my ship" ~Louisa Mae Alcott~
" It is a true friend who can be silent with us in a moment of despair or confusion, who can stay with us in an hour of grief and bereavement, who can tolerate not knowing, not curing, not healing and face with us the reality of our powerlessness, that is a friend who cares."
— Henri J.M. Nouwen
You don't necessarily decide who walks into your life, but you can decide who you let stay & who you let go!
"Never judge a widow's progress by your own or anyone else's experience. Grief does not come in 'One size fits all.' We each are unique; and so is our grief." ~ Annie Estlun
Tuesday, October 2, 2012
Movie Review: Here comes the boom
I went to a pre-screening of here comes the boom.
Here comes the boom was a hilarious movie.
It was funny, exciting and suspenseful.
Good work!
Here comes the boom is being released into theaters Oct 12th.
Here comes the boom was a hilarious movie.
It was funny, exciting and suspenseful.
Good work!
Here comes the boom is being released into theaters Oct 12th.
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