There’s some
weird energy in my life right now.
The other
night, I got a frantic message from a co-worker that she had a dream about S.
The dream
went as follows:
She was
watching herself sleep (In the bedroom she has now), when S. walked in and
walked up to her. He blew in her face and yelled “Wake up!” She sat up in bed,
and he was rambling on. He was talking to fast and angry for her to understand.
She told him to slow down, she didn’t understand. He grabbed her by the
shoulders, shook her, and said “Fucking listen to me, this is important! I need
you to watch M. really close. Especially at work. Watch every step she takes. I
need you to take care of her and protect her, especially when she is driving
away.” She then woke up.
The dream was
so real, she was confused how she just woke up when in her dream she was
already awake, and how S. was just standing in her bedroom, then was gone.
She said S.
was very agitated, panicked, and in a rush.
I chalked it
up to the recent car problems I have had (Details at the bottom) but decided to
take extra precaution with driving. I have people run red lights on me probably
twice a month, happens constantly, so I’m always watching, waiting for someone
to run the light. I made a mental note to be careful driving, be careful
driving drowsy (thanks insomnia), and to be careful because of my car problems.
I seriously just thought my co-worker was
worried about me because I was recently locked in my car with no way to escape.
This morning
I had a dream that my friend texted me and said “S. is really pissed off,
something is wrong!” When I got the text, I knew S. was dead.. and I knew he
had been dead for a while, so I was confused by my friends message. I dialed my
friend’s number, put the phone to my ear, then my alarm went off, waking me up.
I thought it
was a weird dream. I planned on texting my friend later in the day and telling
him about the dream, but first I had to get ready for work.
As I was
getting ready for work, I heard my phone go off.. this is like 6:30am. The only
person that texts that early is my boss. I checked my phone… and well, the
friend I dreamed about had text me, had a dream about S. last night.
Here’s his
dream:
So here is my dream as best as I
can remember and some of it I don’t think makes much damn sense. Some of it is
really clear, like I am clear about sitting at my desk right now, other parts
are foggy and hazy like I can’t tell if they were real or what.
So
it starts with S. and I sitting at what looks like a sports bar. It reminds me
of the Bout Time by the E Center. We are sitting there at a tall table with two
big beers in front of us. He is ranting about how I don’t understand how
serious this is. I don’t have any idea what he is talking about but he is
really irritated. I can’t tell if he is irritated with me or what he is ranting
about. I had this sense though, which I really don’t have any idea about his
size that he was much bigger than me. I know that sounds random but it was just
a weird sense I got. Anyway, I was trying to calm him down so he would tell me
what I didn’t understand and what was so serious. The felling I got is the same
one I get when T. is ranting about something. He just goes off and I have to
try and calm him down to get to whatever it is he is ranting about. Anyway, He
just kept telling me that I didn’t understand how serious this was. So I sort
of barked back at him that “ I got it” this is serious but what do you want me
to fucking do. He said I have to take care of M. To look out for her and
protect her. That he knew that I would always protect you. That he needed to be
able to count on me. So I reassured him that I would but that he needed to tell
me what the fuck the problem was. He just said again that I didn’t or maybe it
was possibly that I wouldn’t, understand how serious it was. He got up and left
and I asked him where he was going, that he hadn’t finished his beer and that I
still didn’t understand. He looked at me and said “ yes you do” and that he
knew I would take care of you….
Then
things get fuzzy..this is the part that I can’t get a lock on so to speak..What
is clear about this is you and I sitting on a bed in a strange house. The bed
was one of those old time beds with the metal head and foot board. Anyway, we
were running or hiding from someone or something. Not clear..but we were hiding
in this house in this bedroom. I had my arm around you with your head in my
chest and kept telling you that I would not let anything happen to you. That
you would be safe. I was kissing the top of your head. You were crying and
upset but I just kept telling you not to worry. I would never let anyone or
maybe it was anything get you. Then a loud noise like a siren or something from
down stairs went off and I woke up..
So
it was weird. The S. part like I said was pretty damn clear. The you part was
more fuzzy, dream like, ummm distant to some degree. But I had a very strong
emotion about you when I woke up. I still don’t know what the warning was about
but he was clear that he knew he could count on me to care for and look after
you. Which is very true but I find strange given what has happened between us
and that I have not been present in your life for the last 6 mos or so. So
anyway, that was what I remember about my dream last night. I didn’t or don’t
remember any other dreams or having any dreams for weeks for that matter.
When my
friend told me about his dream, the hair on the back of my neck stood up. How
is it possible I dreamed my friend texting me that, when my friend is having
this dream about S. at almost the exact same time??
I’m on edge.
Several people in my life are on edge.
I had to do the one thing I hate doing.
Reminding my mother that if something did happen to me, what I would want. I
wouldn’t want to be paralyzed or left on machines. My mom hates these
conversations, but without a spouse.. those duties fall to my parents, and I
don’t want them to ever question what I would or wouldn’t want.
One thing
that is repeating in all 3 dreams is S.’s agitation about the situation.
Something is
amiss somewhere, and I can’t figure out what it is, what these signs are, or
hell.. what to even do with the information.
For now I
will be extra cautious with everything I do (lock the doors, don’t go out alone
at night, be safe driving) and will be updating my will, yet again.
(Car details,
this happened last week-While driving my 2005 VW
Jetta the other day, the car started dinging at me, indicating that the driver’s
side door was open. I pulled over (on the side of the freeway), went to open my
door, only to find out I could not open the door. Nor could I roll down the
window. I was locked inside of my car, on the side of the freeway!)
FYI Volkswagen is aware of the design
flaw and has not recalled this part. So if you found this blog looking for
reviews on Volkswagen, I say run to Honda.
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